What are you doing? (Lewis)

[NICHOLAS WINTERS]

To Nicks surprise, Lewis hadn't filled out the paperwork to switch roommates, And Nick had eventually returned to his own room, finding his things all in their place, nice and neat, he had been fearing the destruction of his items, but it hadn't happened. Lewis had greeted him with a nod and a muttered greeting, which confused Nick and left him feeling a bit awkward in the room.. everything was so normal, Nick had been torn to pieces, but here everything way, like a normal day...

But tonight seemed to be against him. His muscles all tensed as the first rumble of thunder reached his ears. Just this small beginning sound sent a jolt of fear up his spine. With the utmost agility he could muster with his fear heavy limbs, he curled himself into a ball in the corner of his bed, pressing against the headboard and wall.  Another rumble of thunder hit, louder and closer. Nick curled into a tighter ball, his jaw locked and eyes squeezed shut, Fingers clutching at his head, his nails cutting into his scalp and his muscles locked again. A crack of thunder sent  his limbs into a spasm, flying out in pure terror, his eyes shooting open and bulging. His phone went off, a text from Danni

"Locked in my room under guard, I am so sorry"

He remembered the thunderstorms they had gone through back in London, two years of having a best friend who could wrap her wings around you, who could block out the sound... She remembered them to, and was apologizing for not being able to come to his aid.  As the minutes passed, the thunder grew closer and in strength, Nick found himself trembling against the wall, knees to his chest, hands ether in his hair of clutching the blankets. 

He kept eyeing the sleeping form of Lewis, unsure what he would do if Nick failed to retain his instincts he had during a thunderstorm. But all logical thought flew out the window as a crack of thunder sent the walls shaking. Within a heartbeat, Nick had leapt from his bed to Lewis's in one bound, eyes wide.

He quickly curled into a ball against his roommates chest, his face pressed against his chest, seeking comfort, but having enough sense not to press his face into the males neck, seeing as how the last time he had gotten close had ended.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis faintly heard thunder as he had just drifted off not that long ago.However he groaned as a heavy weight of skin and bones landed on him,violently ripped him from slumber."Gaaahhh!"He sat up,sleep still seeming to cling to him even with a rude awakening.He looked around the room before looking down to see Nick wrapped around him and his face pressed into Lewis' chest."Nick? What are you doin'? he asked,sleep making his voice scratchy and rough.He felt the other male shaking and without actually using his half asleep brain,he wrapped his arms around Nick and pulled him closer.He sat further up on the bed and somehow managed to pull Nick more into his lap. Lewis sighed slightly and leaned his head down to rest upon Nick's.

'Must be deathly afraid of thunderstorms.Stupid weather. At least,I can do this for him.I mean, I was a colossal jerk. I should talk to him but I'm not sure he would listen.' he thought to himself.He sighed internally and started rocking both himself and Nick slightly at a slow pace.He started humming a light lullaby his uncle had told him his father loved.

He lifted his head only to promptly put it down again,but this time his cheek was on Nick's mop of hair." Everything is going to be alright,don't worry."He spoke softly,smiling slightly. He finally had the man he had been crushing on since the incident in his arms,but...it wasn't under the best circumstances.

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Nick's eyes opened slightly, looking up at Lewis, shock and relief very apparent on his features. He went to thank the boy, his fears of being tossed onto the floor fading as he was held closer. But his words caught in his throat as another loud and ridiculously close crack of thunder sent him curling closer to Lewis, Trembling, his eyes snapping shut and his teeth clamping over his bottom lip. As the residual rumbling faded, his muscles unlocked. The slow rocking was comforting, his fear filled brain didn't even question it. Without thought, he nuzzled his way closer to Lewis, his head resting between his neck and jaw line.

Lewis's soothing words helped, until another crack of thunder sent him into another fit of shivering. He pressed his face close, his nose nudging Lewis's collarbone. The pressure of Lewis's cheek was felt, unknown but not unwelcome, The thunder driving the memory of that fateful night out of his brain for the moment. He let out a whimper as another crack of thunder was heard, although it seemed not a harsh, fading in intensity? All Nick was able to register was the thunder... and it caused his tremors to worsen.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis looked down at Nick as the other teen looked up at him.His eyes held nothing but warmth and compassion,trying to let Nick know it was okay and that he was safe here,despite sitting in the lap of a walking piece of human trash.The shaking mound of skin seemed to relax,but then shook even worse as more thunder hit. Lewis gripped Nick tighter to himself and started whispering sweet nothing to him.He loved that he had Nick here in his arms but hated that is was by his fears that he was even bothering with the person who had ripped his heart apart. Lewis felt his heart ache at the thought of what he had done.Without hesitating or even thinking it through first,which would have been helpful in the long run anyways,Lewis lifted his head and pressed a gentle kiss onto Nick's head.

He replaced the area he had kissed with his cheek once more and continued to whisper sweet nothings to nick.He kept changing them up,but he repeated one certain one a few times too many.

"I'm sorry,I am so so sorry.I would take it all back if I could." He repeated that for himself so he would hear and always remember when he did.But mostly for Nick,Because the other teen needed to know how truly sorry he was.

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Nick whimpered, pressing closer to Lewis (If that was even possible) His eyes were still shut, but his face has calmed down, no longer scrunched in fear. His muscles twitched as he felt the soft press of lips to his forehead. His eyes opened to look up at Lewis, although the males cheek keeping his head steady kept him from getting a good look. He moved his head, his brain clearing for a bit with the new information he was processing.

He looked at Lewis, his eyes questioning and slightly confused behind the still present fear. He had heard the apologies Lewis had muttered, and faintly wondered if they were genuine, not just helping with the boys guilt. But as he looked into the boys eyes, he could tell this wasn't just for his guilt. His heart seemed to help, the over stimulation of the thunder and all of the feelings clouded out his brain once again. His hand lifted, tracing Lewis's jaw line softly with his thumb. He tilted his head to the side, his index finger returning to trace his cheek bone. "It ok..." he muttered leaning closer.

Unfortunately, Nick was sent curling into Lewis once again by a crack of thunder, his body shaking, but he had pressed his face into the crook of Lewis's neck, his arms wrapping around his shoulders and grabbing fistfuls of his undershirt.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis gazed into Nick's eyes.There was so much to tell him,yet he would never believe him,not now,maybe not ever.His eyes flicked away for a split second as he realized this,hurt and sadness filling his eyes,but he quickly looked back and looked at Nick,thinking about everything he would say to Nick to try and convince him of his love for the other male.He smiled lightly down ad Nick,his eyes soft and inviting,full of love and adoration.He watched the man in his lap lift his hand and touch his face.Lewis sighed in content and closed his eyes,leaning into the gentle touches to his face.

As arms flew around him and clutched at his shirt,Lewis lifted his head to accommodate for Nick's head suddenly pushing against his neck.He smiled down,sympathy and caring clear in his eyes,even if the other male wasn't able to see.He moved his head until his lips were close to Nick's ear.Whispering 'it's okay's and 'your safe here,I won't let anything hurt you's into his ear.he took a deep breath before he spoke

"I know I hurt you,and I know it was so inhumane and cruel, how I did it,but there is no limit to how far I would go to fix what I did.Anything you ask of me,consider it done.I would lay down my life for you if that's what you asked.I just hope,in time,that someday,some year, in the future you'll forgive me. i care for you too much to ever give you up Nick." he tried strung words together,using all the compassion and love he could muster to make those words work together and mean something.He pressed his head into Nick's just a little more,hugging him tighter by just a fraction.Letting a tear slip from his eye and land on Nick's soft skin.



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The thunder was dying down, Nicks shaking was fading as he relaxed into Lewis's arms. His face smoothed, nuzzling into The males soft skin. He murmured sleepily as His fear faded and left him completely exhausted. He nuzzled closer as Lewis talked. It might be a bit of time for him to completely forgive him, but he couldn't deny how much he liked this boy, and how safe and comfortable he felt in his arms.

His arms tightened around him slightly before going loose, still wrapped around Lewis, but not fearing for your life tight. All his muscles seemed to relax and he melted into Lewis, wiped out from his panic attack that thunder causes. He cooed quietly, his brain unable to make coherent thoughts as exhaustion overwhelmed him. His legs stretched out, his ankles crossing with Lewis's. HE let out a sigh, the storm seemed to be over, he was safe, still held in Lewis's arms, the words he spoke warmed his heart, made him hopeful... and as he drifted off to sleep, a single sentence was muttered "I'm glad you didn't fill out those papers" And with that he drifted into a blissful sleep, his face calming, his entire weight being shifted onto Lewis.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Nick's weight settled on top of Lewis as he drifted off.Lewis lifted his to stare down at nick with eyes filled will love.He nuzzled the top of Nicks head and kissed it once more.

'God,i would give anything to be your one and only.and because of that.I'm willing to wait however long it takes for you to fully forgive me'

He shifted them both down slightly on the bed and pulled the kicked away blankets back up on top of both of them.Lewis felt himself drifted as Nick drifted against him as well.When Nick spoke however,Lewis' heart swelled.He chuckled lightly,a wide grin over taking his face.

"I'm glad too,you dork,otherwise I wouldn't be able to tell you that I love you."He smiled.He looked down to see that Nick's eyes had closed and his breathing had evened out.Lewis gazed upon his crush and smiled."Of course you would fall asleep before I said that. Heh ,Love you...Nick.Sweet Dreams." Lewis looked out the window above the bed to see the sky was dark,but not from the clouds of angry thunder and lightning,but from it now being clear and the stars twinkling above them as Lewis finally drifted off to sleep,the man he loved in his arms.


[Time skip to morning]

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The sunlight filtering through the curtains was what had woken the slumbering boy. His eyes blinked open, but the preassure or arms around him stopped him from stirring. he evaluate his surroundings with his eyes only, a flood of relief hitting him. 'it wasn't a dream, not a terror infused hallucination... That... was real' the thought made him smile, resting his head down onto Lewis's chest softly, grinning happily to himself.

He sighed lightly, feeling the rise and fall of the boys chest, enjoying the soothing sounds of his breathing. He evaluated their position, Nick has slipper to the side, no longer completely on top of Lewis, His waist, his and legs were on his side, one leg wrapped around Lewis's, He had had one arm draped across Lewis's chest, his head still resting on the boys chest. He kinda felt bad, it couldn't be comfortable to sleep on your back all night...

He chuckled very lightly, curling back up and closing his eyes, drowsiness overtaking him once again as he drifted off to sleep again.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis yawned wide as his eyes fought to open.He lifted what he knew was his free arm,and Stretched that limb out,feeling it protest.While sleeping on his back had been slightly uncomfortable,it was worth it for the sight of Nick when he looked down.The other boys face was relaxed and everything was soft save for his cheek bones.He draped his arm back over Nick where it had been.He looked around the room,out the window,anywhere,just taking in everything around him and how perfect it was. How nick's bed was a mess from him leaving it that previous night,How Lewis' bed had two teenagers in it and it's sheets and blankets were either askew or falling off one of them.He shifted his arm and his free leg and used the two free limbs to fix the fallen blankets back around both of them .He replaced his arm again and relaxed his leg back against Nick's.He looked back down to Nick for awhile,he kissed the top of the sleeping male head,deeming it safe to say they weren't going to class today,he laid his head back down,relaxing and closing his eyes.He started lazily tracing patterns on Nick,as he drifted off to sleep,dreaming about Nick's eyes.

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(Later~)

Nick woke up, the stillness of the male next to him alerted him that they had both woken up, what caused them to both be dragged from slumber? He couldn't tell... but he knew they were both awake. He smiled, nuzzling into Lewis's chest. But a nervous knot curled into his stomach. With the fear and panic gone, his memory of that night flooded back and he tensed up a bit. "I...im sorry about what happened last night... It was probably uncomfortable for you..." he said, untangling his limbs (although unwilling to do so) and clambered out from under the covers and onto the floor.

He ran his fingers through his hair, wanting to just enjoy this time... but his deep rooted fear of rejection kept his anxiety rising. He turned towards Lewis, smiling shyly. "Thank you.... for helping me through that... i'm sorry if I caused you harm with my leap from my bed to yours... and I apologize for anytime after this that that might happen" he smiled again, wringing his hands together behind his back, trying to work through his feelings, figure out why his heart and body were both screaming at him to climb back into the bed and curl around Lewis.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis watched silently as Nick clambered off his bed.He too got up.throwing back the covered as they pooled around his legs,Sitting on the edge of the bed he looked up at Nick,who looked so adorable when he was being shy about something.

"It was fine,honestly,I rather enjoyed it.I never fell asleep comfortably on my own,so..uh..having you there...really helped."He chuckled,rubbing the back of his neck as a nervous habit. "You're welcome,though.No no,I was just startled,but after I caught on to why..well,the least I could do was help."He spoke,looking and Nick's face,genuine honesty filling his eyes,his iris's changing to a bright green."Honestly,I was a colossal jerk, the least I could do is help you with your fears."He spoke,standing up and walking over to stand in front of Nick.

"What you said...last night,about me not filling out the papers..."He took a steadying breathe before speaking again.He had to know." Did you mean that? Was that the truth?"He asked,grabbing Nick's elbows,and look up into his eyes.

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Nicks cheeks grew crimson, a small smile staying on his lips. His eyes blinking rapidly, not expecting the question. He looked down, his eyes a mixture of blue and green, a lighter color then they usually are. He nodded, not trusting his voice. He really had meant what he had said. With the fading fear from the thunderstorm, the exhaustion, and the safe and comfortable feeling he had been in last night, the sentence had slipped and it was nothing but the truth.  He cleared his throat, "Yes, it was true, I promise" He said, the truth to his words visible in his eyes.

He softly removed Lewis's hands from his *Elbows(was changed), Before Lewis could question this action, he wrapped his arms around the males shoulders, pulling him into a hug, his cheek pressing against his head. He inhaled, the scent of Lewis swirling around him. He felt safe here, but his mind was whirling with his past experiences.  He pulled back, smiled and ran his fingers through his hair. "I truly am sorry" he whispered before making his way to the door, needing to sort out his feelings and connect peaces. Sort out his thoughts about Lewis and what to do now.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis looked overjoyed at Nick's reply."I'm glad."He grinned at that.He was glad.He didn't want to loose nick at all.He loved him more than anything in the world.He felt his heart swelling with emotion.He hugged Nick right back,grasping at the fabric of his shirt.As Nick pulled away he let go.Looking at Nick made him want to kiss the taller male,but his look changed however when Nick ran out the room.Did he do something wrong? Say something? He panicked for about a second before running out after Nick.He needed to know that the other man was okay and that it wasn't his fault.He saw Nick disappearing around the corner,and he ran down that way.

'What happened? Why would he run away.god,I hope it wasn't something I said last night.What DID I say last night? I sad I I loved him but he fell asleep.I said I would take it all back if I could, I told him I would die for him.I can't think of anything but this morning's conversation would have set him off.God, I am a bloody jerk,I need to show him how sorry I really am.'he thought as he rounded the corner.

"Nick!Nick,Please,Wait!"He called out.He managed to catch up and pull Nick back.He pushed the taller of them against the wall and placed his hands on either side of Nick."stop,don't try and talk.Listen.I am sorry.No matter how many times I say it, before and after you forgive me,if you do forgive me ever in this lifetime, there won't be enough 'sorry's in the world to let you know how horrible I felt doing what I did to you. But having you in my arms last night,all tangled up in each other, was probably the best feeling in the world and I would have you in my bed again anytime,under circumstances that don't involve your fears. I can't tell you how I feel,because expressing emotions never was my best area,But I care for you.Deeply.I would sell my soul to the devil if that's what it took to convince you that..."He stopped,he had just spilled guts that he never realized felt that strong about Nick. 'Dammit where the bloody hell were these feelings two weeks ago!?' He thought,looking away before looking back to Nick. He narrowed his eyes at the taller male."...That I love you Nick,and I'll be damned if I won't tell you that until you truly believe that what I feel for you is real,through and through."He said before grasping Nick's face in his hands and bringing the taller in for a  kiss,using all the passion he felt for Nick to make it as sweet and love filled as possible.

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Nick's initial fear of the homophobes returning faded as his eyes locked onto to Lewis. He opened his jaw to reply but was shushed from the get go before a word could escape. His eyes grew wide as Lewis talked. He could feel his heart racing, pulse racing as he listened. All the (FEELS) doubts he had had, all the insecurities blew out the window as he listened to Lewis's words.

He smiled as Lewis said that he loved him, tears springing to his eyes, but not dropping. He was slightly startled when Lewis reached him and pulled his lips to his own. His eyes widened, pupils blown wide as he returned the kiss. Although, their silvery blue green color were hidden quite quickly as he closed his eyes, returning the kiss quickly. His hand wrapped around Lewis's waist, pulling him closer as his other hand curled into his hair, pulling his head closer and deepening the kiss.

His hand ran through Lewis's hair, sliding down the boys head and coming to a rest at the back of his neck, keeping slight pressure there to keep him close. is lips opened slightly, an invitation to Lewis.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis felt his heart race as he kissed Nick.He had been wanting to do this for a long time.He waited for the taller of them to push him away in rejection or fear of this being another game,Lewis just screwed his eyes tighter and waited.He felt joy overtake him as the kiss was returned.He dropped a hand to Nick's shoulder and kept his other at Nick's face,using his thumb to stroke his cheek.He pressed closer so he backed Nick against the wall fully this time.The feelings of the contact of skin on skin(hand touching face/back of neck) was overpowering,The hand on his waist.He wasn't even needing more air yet and he still didn't want to pull away even when he did need it.Reveling in the feeling of Nick's other hand in his hair,He groaned into the kiss,hesitant to go further,but as Nick's lips parted,Lewis grinned in his minds eye and slid his tongue into Nick's mouth,gently sliding his tongue across the tip of the other boys tongue before dragging it up the top and back down.

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Nick groaned into the kiss, his mind shutting off line as Lewis took his invitation. His back pressed against the wall and he inwardly chuckled as the memory of the last time he was against a wall flooded his mind.

'most people who push someone else against the wall fancy a snog'


He chuckled, how true it had been, ad how thankful he was that Lewis was the one pressing against him, keeping him pinned. After what seemed like an eternity but was probably more like 45 seconds, his lungs demanded to be used and he broke away with a gasp. His eyes traveled across Lewis's face, pupils blown wide, and a look of adoration upon his face. His lips continued to Lewis's jaw line, then down to  his neck, leaving soft kisses and love bites across the sensitive skin. His lips then returned to Lewis's mouth, his lips greedy. He pulled away again, quicker then the last time. He Wrapped his arms Around Lewis with a small laugh, his head pressing close to Lewis's.  "Lewis... were still in the hallway" he muttered, his lips brushing the skin beneath Lewis's ear.  "To hell with classes, I have netflix" he whispered before grinning, taking Lewis's hand in his own,  twining his fingers with the other males and walking towards their own dorm, his cheeks flushed, lips swollen, seeming to glow with joy. He looked over his shoulder "You up for a marathon?" he asked, grinning happily.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

Lewis' eye darkened with love. God he loved this boy. "Oh Bloody hell."He spoke,realizing he had just kissed Nick in the open and anyone could have seen them.Oh well,screw the rules,he had needed to get all that love out of his system.His eyes still wide,he let himself be pulled back towards the room they shared,tightening his grip on Nick's hand. "Yes,Netflix sounds delightful,as does a marathon."He chuckled,gazing at the Nick as he looked back. Once they arrived at the door and stepped inside,Lewis jumped him,he dragged Nick back down before the other could even both going to grab his laptop.After a minute,he broke away."Go get your laptop and come sit down." He whispered against Nick's mouth before pecking nick's lips quickly and heading over to his own bed,he hopped onto of it and set down against the head board.He waited for Nick,going over all that had happened this morning.

'I told him how I really felt,I got a bloody amazing kiss and now we're going to watch Netflix and hopefully cuddle.Bloody fantastic if I do say so myself.'

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Nick's chuckle reverberated in his chest as Lewis pulled away. He rolled his eyes and walkied over to hs own side of the room, retrieving his computer and his cord before heading to Lewis's bed. He placed the electronics on Lewis's lap "Hold these for a second" he said, his baritone voice rolling off his tongue softly.

He then continued to "gracefully" (Total opposite) clamber over Lewis to get to the corner of the bed. He tried to turn in mid air, which ended up just him slamming his shoulder blades on the headboard/wall, and getting his legs tangled. He sighed, scooting up so he was actually sitting up, his legs sorting themselves out. He curled up next to nick, his head resting on the boys shoulder.

He grabbed the laptop, typed in his information and set it on Lewis's lap so they both could see. "What do you want to watch?" he asked, biting his lip a bit, looking at Lewis. HE faintly wondered if Lewis would mind his more dorky side... but he pushed it away, giving Lewis the chance to pick what ever they were going to watch.

[LEWIS ZACHARY BROOKES]

After Nick successfully managed to FINALLY settle,Lewis huffed and turned and pressed a gentle kiss into his forehead. He turned to the screen and stared dumbfounded for a few seconds.

'iS HE A DOCTOR WHO FAN CAUSE I NEED SOMEONE TO FAN BOY WITH SCREW IT JUST SAY IT' He screamed internally.He took a shallow breath before speaking." Doctor who?" he offered,looking over to Nick's face.He had always been a huge fan of it and always kept up to speed with each new episode,grinning wildly at each new doctor and crying at each regen. He never found anyone who was as in love with the show as he was.His mother always thought he was too obsessed and tried to shut off the internet every time he started watching it.but he used his powers of electricity to always turn it back on and watch without her knowing.

As he waited for Nick's answer he looked away,blushing." I really love doctor who,but I-if you would prefer we watch something else,we can.I -it was just a suggestion,really.He stuttered in embarrassment,moving his hands to cover his beet red face, screwing his eyes shut and biting his lip.

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